Kindness can be foreign to you.
Generosity could feel awkward.
Gratitude may feel burdensome.
Love might feel dangerous.
All of this: kindness, generosity, gratitude and love (along with fun and play) are who you actually are before and beyond the shock and trauma of your abuse.
Yet just like files on a hard drive, they got replaced during and after your abuse with hypervigilance, control, rigidity and dominance.
How do you update your “hard drive” and replace the old files based in abuse with these new files? How do you rediscover the gratitude for you, th
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